Really digest the words I am about to tell you..."You can always be replaced at any old job, but you can NEVER be replaced as Mommy." You are trying to be Superwoman, and it is IMPOSSIBLE. Your baby needs you to be there to hold him, play with him, rock him, sing to him, teach him and love him. And your husband needs you to take care of him by being a loving, non stressed wife, who enjoys creating a warm place for him, your baby and you. I was a full time stay at home mom for 7 years until very recently when my youngest started school, and I can tell you that even though my schedule is "almost" perfect because it works around school and my husband's schedule so that one of us is always home with the kids, I still have a hard time keeping up with daily stuff, and I only have ONE job outside the home. Get your priorities strait. Put your baby and husband first, and make a budget that will keep you home and your family happy that you did so. You will probably be surprised that your husband will be transformed into a very happy man who is proud to go out every day and "slay dragons" to take care of you and his son, and will hardly be able to wait to come home to your arms and lips. One more thing, mommyhood is not something that should be juggled, it's something you need to put all of your energy and heart into. It doesn't sound like you have the time or energy right now to be a mommy. If it's a money thing, the first thing you can do is cut out the non-essentials like cable, cell phones, expensive car payments, expensive clothing, etc. Get creative and see how much money you can save every month. I think you know the right thing to do, it's just a matter of making it happen.
