J.J. asks from Mount Juliet, TN on May 06, 2009
I Want My Boobs Back
I have been nursing my son for 4 months. When I decided to breastfeed I committed to six months, but now I feel like he is attached to me all the time and I have to pump at work which is a little uncomfortable. I am considering weaning him, but I am afraid that I will want to go back once we start the process. Has anyone else had these conflicting feelings? How did you deal with it? What did you ultimately decide?
So What Happened?™
Thanks to everyone that responded. It was so good to know that other moms felt the same way. I also really needed all of the incouragement that all of you offered. I have decided to stick it out at least two more months and revisit the issue when I have met my original goal.
Thanks again!
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A.B. answers from Fayetteville on May 06, 2009
I went back to work 6 weeks after having a csection and I nursed as well. I nursed exclusively for 3 months and built a supply so she had it for 6 months total. It started to ware on me mentally-I felt like even though she'd be napping and I'd be in the other room-there were these strings attached. Like, I couldn't go too far away for fear she'd do without and it would my solely my fault. Pumping at work, for me, was a nightmare because it wasn't the ideal place-I never felt like I had secure privacy. (Some work places have space exclusively for that but my job didn't) It really made me feel terrible like I was choosing to take something wonderful away from my daughter. I felt selfish, frustrated, sad, disappointed in myself("other moms could do it for a whole year!") Then I realized that there are plenty of women who physically cannot nurse and use formula and their children are happy and healthy kiddos! Its not like I was giving her something toxic! I thought if I quit and dried up, I couldn't go back (or at least it would be difficult) and so I worried about that too! I nursed her only in the morning, nap time, then bedtime (bottles in between) .....then only nap time and bed time.....then only bed time. In between, I was pumping to build supply. I started giving her part formula, part bm until it ran out. She transitioned to only formula seamlessly. And I constantly leaked which totally sucked!! So, having dry boobs was quite a relief! I know that breastmilk is best, but more importantly, how could I be emotionally available for my daughter if I was so anxious/frustrated/etc with breastfeeding? Children benefit GREATLY from bm, but even more from a happy mommy. Four months is quite an accomplishment-especially while working so kudos kudos kudos to you!! Happy mommy means happy healthy baby!
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M.M. answers from Nashville on May 06, 2009
J., (message from a SAHM)
A woman chooses to nurse her little one for many different reasons. You must ask yourself, "Why did I choose to nurse my baby?" Then, weigh that against whether you should continue nursing or not. You are a working mother who has to do double the efforts of someone who can just pop the child on the boob and nurse anytime.
No one tells you in the beginning that it really requires a sacrificing of your body to the child while nursing. This is the hardest part about the whole situation. You want what is best for the child, but you want what is best for yourself as well. I say as long as you are happy, productive, okay with offering up your body like a sacrificial lamb, then continue moving forward with the nursing. If you simply are stressed out, feeling guilty because you WANT to stop, then please let it go.
When I came home with my now 20 month old son, there were so many times in the first six months (he nursed every 1.5 hours) that I was irritable and confused and guilty because the wanting to quit and wanting to nurse were driving me crazy. Then, one day it hit me like a light bulb....this has been my body for 35 years...he can have it for two...(that is our stopping point as we have made it to 20 months right now)...there are too many benefits that will carry on into his adult life that gave me reason to continue forward.
BUT, this is a decision you and only you can make. I really do feel for you. Our babies mean so much to us that we will do anything for them. Sometimes, especially a working mom, can not do everything. Don't let this weigh too heavily on your shoulders if you decide to quit. You are doing everything you can for the little one. But, if you do decide to move forward. Good Luck and I will be thinking of you.
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S.S. answers from Raleigh on May 07, 2009
Oh absolutely. I felt liike a single parent because I was doing all the feeds, couldn't drink liquer, and my husband would just assume that if he cried he was hungry and pass him off. The guilt won me out tho. My son is 2 and 3 months and with the exception of 1 ear infection after I weaned him he has never been seriously sick. I am very glad I stuck it out. It seems like a long time now, but when I look back it went by REALLY fast. I just knew I wanted to give him the best start and for me that was breast milk. Just do what is right for you and your family.
You can pump the other side at home while you are nursing your son, to collect milk while not at work. This should cut down on your pumping time at work. Its much more comfortable and the milk comes easily once your son triggers the letdown. Hope you figure it out! S.
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R.W. answers from Charlotte on May 07, 2009
Wow, J.! Four months is great! Don't let anyone tell you otherwise. Yes, a year would be great also, but at least you did it for the first 4 months! With all 3 of my kids, I breastfed them for anywhere from 3-6 months. Number one is that it is convenient. If your child is hungry, you don't have to carry bottles and mix formula -- just find a quiet spot to nurse. Number two is the cost factor. No expensive formulas or bottles or trying to find the best nipple for the bottle (had a tough time doing that one). Anyway, please be proud that you have accomplished this much. Many children do not get that and they still turn out fine.
As for weaning -- yes, you will want to go back. I remember crying each time with my children and having feelings of depression and guilt. That, I think is normal and you must remember that you gave them 4 months! Wow, 4 months! That is better than not doing it at all! What about bottles during the day and nursing at night?
Good luck and remember -- Wow, 4 months! I did it!
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D.P. answers from Raleigh on May 06, 2009
I also wanted to nurse until 6 mos but stopped at 4 1/2 mos for many reasons. I didn't really want to go back to breastfeeding once I stopped completely, even though I thought I would. I weaned gradually, and for a while still breastfed him at night and early morning. I think that helped some with the "parting" feelings. Do what you feel is right and don't let others pressure you in any way. I am sure you will make the right decision.
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E.D. answers from Greensboro on May 08, 2009
J.,
LOL! I think you will regret weaning him. In about two months he will start beginning solids and won't need you as much. Give it time and you'll see how wonderful it will be as he get bigger. You might even want to nurse until he is one (which is what the American Pediatric Association suggests). I've breastfeed all four of my kids, the first two for one year, the third for 18 months, and currently nursing my 9 month old. Now that he eats so much solids, nursing is a piece of cake! Plus, I really enjoy the time that we have cuddling together since he is such a buisy little guy crawling all over the place and not wanting to be held as much....take your time. If you need more advice, feel free to contact me. I'd be glad to help in any way possible. Best of luck!
:) E.
By the way, the first three kids, I also worked as a full time teacher and pumped. I hated pumping (I remember) but it is so well worth it when you see your plump and healthy babies! :) No formula can replace Mamas 100% organic milk ;)
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A.R. answers from Knoxville on May 07, 2009
I went throught he same thing. Working mom, pumping at work and all of the other stuff. It started to drive me crazy. I tortured myself for 13 months!!!! Mothers guilt won out in the end. Looking back I don't think it was necessary to do what I did. I don't think if my child would have got a bottle she would be any different. That is just my opinion. What ever you choose I think you will be fine.
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S.W. answers from Lexington on May 06, 2009
I nursed both of my children and yes there were times especially in the beginning with my first child that I wondered if I could continue. However, I hate washing dishes and the thought of washing bottles all the time really appealed to me even less. I continued to nurse and I managed to get past a lot of those feelings. I started working part time after my oldest one had his first birthday and it was definately more taxing and I did go ahead and wean him. I continued to work part time when I had my second child and it was stressful. I did nurse her for about a year. She actually sort of weaned herself.
What ever you decide - if you decide to wean and go to formula, keep nursing, or breastmilk when you are home, formula when you are at work I know that it will not be an easy decision. You could try giving your baby one bottle of formula each day this week and the rest breastmilk if things go well with the formula you could try doing two bottles formula each day next week. If your baby is having a problem with the formula, but you still want to try formula stick with one bottle of formula a day, just try a different brand that week. When you find a brand of formula that works for your child then you could slowly increase the number of bottles of formula that your baby gets each day. By slowly introducing more formula your milk supply should gradually decrease. If you change your mind and decide to breastfeed more it should only take a few days for your milk supply to build up to the amount you need for your baby.
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