I know what your going thru. I was the same way with my first son and thought somehow unconsciously that only a "good" mother would jump for ever need and whine from my baby. Since then, I had one VERY needy toddler who wouldnt let me put him down to do anything either. Then I met lots of friends with multiple children who never had this problem and all kids were very loving and well behaved. I asked what in the world she was doing and I coudln't get my child to let me go at all? The answer startled me.
She taught me (over the course of 1 year or so) that everything we do as parents "train" our children to behave one way or another, whether we like it or not. Although I thought I was doing what every good mother should, I had actually trained my son to continue to be needy. I was giving him lots of attention. I was jumping up and down always trying to look for his next need and accomodate him to make him happy and feel loved by me. What baby wouldn't want to stop when his mommy gave him so much attention and did whatever he wanted her to?
You have trained your son that you will hold him and carry him around no matter what. You have trained him that if he cries and wants you, you'll gladly come over and pick him up. Without realizing it, you have trained him to do the very thing your trying to get him "not" to do.
The answer? To re-train your son that you are the parent, and he is the baby, and you are in control, not him. That yes, you love him and would do anything for him, you won't rearrange your entire schedule anymore just so he won't cry. He is in control right now, not you. He cries, you run and grab him. He fusses, and your right there. This isn't you in control, teaching him that he is to be quiet and learn to entertain himself when you need to do something else. This is him getting you to hold him all day long so he can keep you wrapped around his little finger.
I feel for you though. I know exactly what you are going thru. My last son was born 14 weeks early and I was afraid even after knowing all this to not let him cry. if he cried too much, he wouldn't gain weight, and being a preemie weight gain was VERY important! But eventually I had to train him that he would be okay without me holding him all day long.
Set your son down with some toys, or put him in a bouncy chair, or whatever you want to use to train him in. Tell him calmly, but in a controlled voice that "Mommy needs to fold the laundry. You are going to play and be good." And when he starts crying or throwing a fit, you calmly, but forcefully tell him that he is okay and "Mommy is not going to pick you up until you quit crying." The biggest mistake many moms make is picking their child up when they cry. You are "Training" them that everytime they cry, they will get picked up. If you want to be in control and teach your son to follow your lead, not the other way around, you need to train him to be satisfied without you sometimes, and he will stop crying within a couple days. Maybe less. No matter what, wait until he quits crying, continually telling him to stop, and as soon as he starts to calm down, get all happy and give him rewarding voices. "thats my BIG boy! See? Now Mommy will hold you since you stopped crying." Make a big fuss about it, and if he starts crying again before you pick him up, wait. Tell him sternly again, "No, thats not appropriate. Your not going to cry. Please stop crying."
My best friends son is now a year and he had the worst time learning this. No matter how much training we did for him, he screamed for hours if she went anywhere or if she left him in the church nursery or with me at her house, even though he knew me well. We finally had to put him in "baby time-out" until he could calm down. Sometimes it was the high chair, or his crib with the light on and door closed so I wouldn't have to hear him scream so loud. It seemed harsh, but in reality, he needed to cry, and I didn't have to listen to him. Within 3 times of using this technique he quit crying for me and was MUCH happier in my care and in the nursery. As soon as he realized that crying and throwing a tantrum was only going to get him put in his crib, it wasn't fun anymore, and he stopped. Paralleled with lots of good words when he did finally stop worked like a charm. Now he lets anyone watch him and doesn't cry at all when he's left with me at my house. Everyone is much happier, and it worked. We also had to use this time-out technique with my 2 year old son at church. Every single week he'd cry so hard so long they'd have to call me to come get him in the nursery. And I'd spend the entire sermon walking the halls with him. Finally I hd enough and told them to do whatever they could to keep him in there. they told me they had him sit at a table and chairs and told him he couldn't get out until he quit crying to play. they said he cried 2 mins and then went to play and that was that. After 2 years of absolute screaming for 3+ hours at other places, and the entire church service before. They only had to do this 2 Sundays and he never cried again. This works, and its easy, and isn't abusive, and the children submit and are happy once they realize you are in control and they are to respect your commands, not their own.
good luck on your little guy! Hope you both can get some "ME" time :)
H.~
SAHM of 2 boys, Rylan (4) and Rory (23 mons)