How lucky for you that you found a medication that really helps you…but how unlucky for you that your irrational self is the deciding factor.
Your cycle is ever oh so common…the meds helped you feel better so you thought, erroneously, that you could go off of them. It happens to countless patients. All strong willed individuals who want to live chemically free and be independent of drugs, even helpful ones.
You have lots of great analogies here. Please memorize them. Please don’t dismiss them. Please contact your health care provider or Psychiatrist who prescribed the meds for you before. Tell them the truth. They will undoubtedly be very helpful in helping you find your way back to normal…and a medicated self will be your normal self.
I would recommend you not self-wean again. Only go off meds if you’ve had years of success and ONLY under medical supervision. Your family is counting on you.
Go to a doctor and take medication. If your anxiety is this severe, improving diet and exercise may help, but not enough.
Don’t feel like a failure. People who are not on medicine are not on medicine because they dont need it.
Recognize how strong and amazing you are that you are functioning and getting through life even though you have this very real medical condition.
If you had diabetes and refused to take insulin your doctor recommended because you felt like a failure, people would be angry at you for putting your daughter at risk of losing her mom.
Depression/anxiety is a real illness caused by a real chemical imbalance. You are not a failure for having it.
You need a homeopath who can find the right remedy for your anxiety. Forget about medicine from the doctor it cannot and it won’t cure you. It has it’s own side effects.
Homeopathy has no side effects. I could tell you a remedy for anxiety but you need one that will really work for you.
More than 15 years ago I was looking for a remedy for a patient whose husband had inoperable cancer. I was reading the work of Marjorie Blackie a British homeopath. She said in an aside that Cuprum Metallicum was the Jewish remedy because Jews worry. The patient was Jewish and so I gave it to her. All her anxiety disappeared and she was able to take good care of her husband while he was dying.
There are many remedys for anxiety and panic attacks so you need a good homeopath who has been in practice for at least 10 years. She/he will find the remedy that works for you.
My heart goes out to you and I wish you the best. I have suffered with insomnia and anxiety which I have learned one feeds from another. Stress, lack of sleep, and anxiety can take a toll on your body and sometimes people need to seek the advice of a trained profession. As many other people of said already you are not a failure. My anxiety has never been this extreme as you described but everyone struggles with different emotions at different levels. I have Rheumatoid Arthritis which intertwineds with difficulty sleeping and other issues but about a year or more ago insomnia and anxiety hit me like a ton of bricks. I thought I could get through on my own but it got worse. I made an appointment with a physician who also specialized in psychology and when I explained to her how I was feeling she said “you need to take a happy pill and everything will be OK.” I never went back. I began to research more and thankfully found an article in a health magazine of a Behavioral Health facility. I have been speaking to a counselor who as helped me so very much. She did prescribe xanax for me to take; however, she has given me many self help tools and a lot of reading material that has helped me learn to control a lot of my anxiety. My point is - everyone is different and it sounds like you may need some medication but look into counseling as well to help you understand what may trigger your anxiety. Anxiety can make you feel scared and very lonely but please know you are not alone!!! When I get anxious and overwhelmed especially at night when I have not been able to fall asleep, I read the bible. God does not want people to worry. Look to him and leave the worry in his hands. Take care and let us know how things are going for you. The world we live in today is so stressful and will make anyway have fear - that’s why there are websites like this!! Sincerely, Monica
I can relate I have bad anxiety too. took meds for a while. u will never be a failure for seeking help. ur child will need u for a long time to come and parenting is very stressful. I worry for mine excessivley to.If u need someone to talk to im here for u . I have six kids.