I am sorry that you are going through this but I am a true believer in everything happens for a reason. It has helped me through many hardships, deaths & terminal illnesses in my family. I think if you go through a massage school , you can probably find a doula who can be there for you for credits. Google massage schools in your area and contact the instructor/program director, let them know the situation and see where that takes you. Maybe your baby will be better off with out a Father like that. Stay strong and congratulations. Whatever you do, don't take out your hurt on your baby. Good luck!
What about your church family? Where is LA do you live/ I'm in the inland empire. I may be able to offer suggestions, but they are in the the IE.
where are u delivering at? that is heart breaking to know that stuff like that happens. I am currently pregnant myself and looking for a doula of some sort because all my "support people" for my July 2011 birth isn't going to help...I have 4 kids but lost them to a court case last yr. I would be willing to at least be some sort of support to you if you are open to that...my email is [email protected] if you are interested. God bless and good luck!
Thank you to everyone that has contacted me. What a wonderful feeling to know I can find support during this hard time, I LOVE THIS SITE! I have found my doula!! YAY! (you know who you are) I knew things would come together, they always do some how. Again thanks to everyone!