Scared. - Overland Park,KS

Updated on April 29, 2008
B.S. asks from Kansas City, MO
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This isn't really a question as much as it is my need to vent and get some things off my chest.

Last week I went to the doctor and the nurse practitioner measured me (my doc ran out for delivery). She said I was measuring about 29.5cm as opposed to the 32+ that I should be (and she's always been fairly small). So naturally I got a little worried. She said if they measure me this week and I'm small again they'll do a sonogram and compare her growth to the 20 week one and it could mean bed rest and/or delivery and she might possible have IUGR. It just makes me upset now because I know she's small and then people come up to me and say, "Oh my goodness! You're so tiny!" (I'm not upset at these people by any means- I do look fairly small- and like they can know all that's going on). I don't want to be tiny. I'm over 8 months pregnant- I should be big and fat and complaining about how bloated my ankles are. I feel like I'm doing something wrong. I've eaten fairly healthy (I'm never going to deny that I eat junk...I'm eating chocolate cheesecake right now! Haha!). I do know that sometimes things just go wrong (my first was a fairly complicated pregnancy, too). It doesn't make me feel any better. When I lay down on my back, my stomach is there, but for sure isn't the size it should be. It's hard as a mother to not blame the things that go wrong (or could go wrong) on yourself.

Second, these darn contractions. I used to take Trebutaline on an as needed basis. I took it with my first daughter after pre-term contractions at 30 weeks and it worked great. Sure, it made me utterly miserable and completely crazy feeling, but it kept her in safe and sound. The past week I've had to take it 'round the clock- which is fine. Saturday I noticed I was having quite a few contractions so I took a pill and laid down for a bit. It seemed to help a lot but not all the way- I was still having a few here and there through the meds. Sunday at church they were 7 minutes apart. As soon as we left and I was able, I took another pill. This was at 12:30. In the past, the meds just kicked right in and it was no big deal. Well even after taking that pill, it just slowed the contractions down to about 15 minutes apart. I eventually called the doctor that was on call and asked if I should get a higher dosage or what and she just said (very irritated sounding) that I should take another pill. I didn't question her even though the bottle said just take one every 8 hours and took another pill- which in turn made me even more shaky and jittery and about 10,000* F (it makes your heart rate jump). Even after that I still had a few. They weren't consistent or anything but the fact that I was having them through 2 doses of "crazy pills" isn't good...at least to me. I didn't call back because, well, I'm not sure why. Maybe it's because she seemed irritated about my calling in the first place and who really wants to spend their night being monitored in the hospital? Not me. Also, when I have them, they don't really hurt, they're just that uncomfortable tightening and then I get a little nauseas.

So needless to say, I'm just a little scared. I try to keep reminding myself that we aren't even for sure if anything is wrong with Ellie but you always have that thing in the back of your head that is worrisome. Ugh. I just hate feeling this way! Not to mention- what the heck am I gonna do if I do have to go on bedrest!?! That's a whole other worry right there!

Well, thanks for letting me vent. I decided it wouldn't be too nice to wake my husband up at 5am and tell him all of my fears. Lol!

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C.M.

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First of all congrats on your sencond baby girl! Second of all I think it is perfectly normal to be anxious during pregnancy whether it is your 1st or you 10th. As far as your belly size: Doctors base the size on a study that was done in the 70's on a limited # of women, it is also where we get the averages for the childs growth chart. It was a poorly done study but has been the "norm" for such a long time that they consider it the standard and hardly consider that everyone is SO different. She could just be sitting towards your back so I wouldn't worry about it too much, although, I do think its wise to have the ultrasound "just to be safe". I'm not to familiar with trebutaline, but I guess you have to think about whether the benefits out weigh the side effects. (I was 10,000* F during my whole pregnancy so I totally understand that one!) I guess I can just say, try to be strong and try to let go of some of the anxiety the best you can. I will be praying for you. It won't be too long that you will have a new beatiful baby girl in your arms!

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M.F.

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God bless you,B.. it sound to me as though you just need someone to say you're alright. so ... you're alright. i know it feels like going crazy, and it is. i'm pretty sure God has a sense of humor, and i'm also pretty sure the "pregnant crazies" are part of that. (so is the platypus, for that matter!) you are doing a great job, and you're baby, i'm sure, is so very excited to meet you. i can tell by your worrying, that you are a fantastic mom. i think we all worry about our babies when we can't see them. i am not trying to discredit your fears, however, i'm sure if this prob wasn't your concern there'd be another'n. i am more than happy to listen to you vent, any time...even at 5am. God bless and congrats!
p.s. i love your babies' names...so precious!!!

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C.M.

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I think that the most important thing to remember is that stressing out about the situation will only make it worse. As long as you can still feel her moving all the time, she will be ok one way or another. It could also be that she is just a small baby. If you are a small person, and she takes after you, she could be perfectly healthy but small. My mother only about 5lbs when she was born and she was full term. As for the contractions, just make sure that you talk to YOUR doctor about what happened and make sure that she would have handled in the same way as the doctor on call. Also drink lots of fluids. If you are dehydrated, the Braxton Hicks type of contracts will be worse. With my second, I went into the hospital b/c the contracts were about 7 mins apart. They did get to 5 min apart while in the hospital but all they did was give me an IV, and then send me home after keeping me all night since I was not progressing. So everytime you have to take one of those pills, drink a BIG glass of water or something too. And be grateful that you ankles are not swollen! I'm sure everything will turn out fine. Just keep breathing, your almost to the end.

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T.S.

answers from Kansas City on

please also keep in mind that your baby may have been laying differently in your tummy.

they had me worried with my first.. but it turns out that my son was just turned more across my tummy than up and down... making my measurements not as much as they "should" have been.

:)

be positive! and congrats!

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