I have 5 very close friends who I can count on through anything I go through. The rest are buddies, and acquaintances. One of those 5 I actually met on here. I put a question in for my location about a playgroup or setting up one for my son. 6 years later we are still very close friends, and our sons are good buddies.
The others are from grade and high school. I am more on the introverted side, so it does take me awhile to warm up to someone. My husband is extremely extroverted, so it helps to have someone around you to start conversations. By myself, it is hard. I'm a good judge of character, so for me, I usually can sense how a person is by just meeting them.
First off, you aren't alone. Their are many people that are going through hard times. Second, contact your unemployement office and look at the boards. See what's out there. Find employement. That's the first step. Once you find a job, stick with it, and then work on making sure your child has a good day care service available. If you need to get on welfare and food stamps, do it. Their is no shame in needing assistance. Does the father pay child support? If not, he needs to.
Third, once you have a job, I would recommend a therapist. You need someone to talk to, but also someone who listens objectively and can help steer you in a good direction for yourself, and for your life.
Fourth, this is a wonderful site in finding women and mothers. Like I said before, I found a wonderful mother on here who I became very close friends with. So, maybe you can find a mother in your area to meet and talk to. I wish you the best, and things always have a way of sorting themselves out.