I didn't suffer from post-partum depression with any of my children, but sometime in my last trimester with my third child, I was diagnosed with anti-partum depression. It was really strange for me because I didn't know what the problem was...I had two great children, happily awaitng the third, was lucky enough to be a SAHM, finances were good, (unlike these days)I really had nothing to complain about. I had always thought depression was just an excuse when the going got tough. That's why I was confused when I began developing those feelings...it was a good life. You can imagine my shock, then, when the Dr. told me I had anti-partum depression! It's rare and many doctors don't know it can happen, particularly a male doctor who has never been pregnant. I'm not saying this is what's going on with you, rather just please don't discount it. Any of us who have suffered any type of depression knows how debilitating the condition can be. My doctor was concerned enough to call my husband right then during that visit. It can be treated...I opted for a few visits with a counselor, talks with my husband and the realization even though a person likes motherhood, pregnancy, nursing and has a great life, nothing will ever be perfect. I think part of it was that I was feeling overwhelmed with life at the time and to this day, I don't know why! Everything was going the way I had planned. And know this...it's not a pre-curser to post-partum depression. I was offered drugs, which I declined and the doc kept a good eye on me, we were aquaintances who saw each other outside the pre-natal visits and he always asked how I was doing. The greatest thing about anti-partum depression is that the cure is delivery of the child, which the doc told me. Of course, I was skeptical, but he was right!
Good luck to you and your family, A L, and I've already said a prayer for you. ~Mary~