Any Moms BRCA2 Positive?

This past Thursday I received my results that showed I have the same mutated gene (BRCA2)that my Mom and Grandmother have (my Mom passed away eight years ago at age 55 from her third round with cancer...she had breast cancer in her forties, ovarian at age 50 and ultimately died of bone marrow cancer from the all of the chemo & my Grandmother had early breast & ovarian cancer as well). We received a call out of the blue last month from the Henry Ford Genetics Depart. requesting myself and all of my siblings have the BRCA2 test, due to their findings/results of a ten year study that concluded in August. My Mom and Grandmother both had the gene test ten years ago, which showed they both had the same mutation, but they did not know at that time what that mutation meant. For those of you that don't know, BRCA2 mutations are one of the most notorious breast cancer and ovarian genes known today and increases your chances of breast and ovarian cancer up to 84%. My sister and I received counseling/our blood drawn together and then received our results the same day. Her's was negative, thank goodness. My brothers still have not been tested. Anyways, I know I should feel thankful that I know I have this gene instead of finding out after I already have cancer like many women do and there are many different options to lower my chances of these cancers....but I look at my boys and I feel frightened, overwhelmed and out of control at this moment in time. I know I can have both of my breasts removed, as well as my ovaries/tubes and that greatly reduces my chances...it's still not that easy for me. I have many decisions and a long journey ahead of me. It took me almost ten years to have my children due to infertility, I was hoping that I would not have another hard battle again for a while after that, I feel like it's bringing up all my pain from that as well as well as the pain of seeing my Mom suffer and all of the bad memories of her battle...at times, I feel like I can't breathe. I am wondering if there are any Moms out there that have this gene that I could talk to...I desperately need support and have been very impressed with the great advise & support people receive on this site. I hope I can get through this and still be at my best for my boys. Another one of my worries, I just started a new part time job and it can be very difficult to find a babysitter for some of the days I work, so trying to find help for me to go to all of my dr.'s appt.'s (there will be a ton of screening appt.'s & consults all within the next month or two), as well as when/if I have my surgeries and afterwards. Everyone works full-time during the week and my mother-in-law doesn't drive, works part-time and makes us feel like she really doesn't want to babysit most of the time (my husband dreads asking her). I really need to keep this job because it's the first time in my life I've ever loved my job and been so passionate about what I do and it will be one the of the things that will keep my mind off my fears, so I feel very stressed about getting help/finding babysitters and I've only just begun this journey. I also wanted to bring some awareness to other women that have lost their mothers at an early age from breast and ovarian cancer, so they can look into gene testing if they have not already done so. Thank you so much for letting me vent, I feel a little better just writing out my feelings and fears. So sorry this was so long.